I felt my life before the war was all made

“I do not think that God wants for people in their late 20s to live with their parents,” said Haanga Aljamal.

He hangs on the balcony of a small apartment where he lived with his mother, father and five adult siblings – because it was the only place he could get any peace and quiet.

Two years ago, 28-year-old Hanya works as an English teacher and lives herself. He applied to US colleges to do a master of international development, and in course for a scholarship to pay for it. Good things – but life is different right now.

As in most days, Sunday began a coffee on the mornings on the balcony, while Hanya watched his neighbor of herbaceous plants, in her clean garden, across the street from a buffalo building.

“It’s just like a pure form of resistance,” said it. “In the middle of all this horror and uncertainty, he still found time to grow something – and something is very beautiful about that.”

Hanya lived in Deir al-Barah, a city in the middle of Gaza, a 25 miles of land in the southeastern seafront of the Mediterranean Sea from October 2023. He has A audio record was recorded that he shared BBC for a radio documentary about what life is there.

The school where he taught should close the start of the war. Hanya became a teacher without students and no school, his understanding of who he fell into his fingers.

“It is very difficult to find the purpose of this time, finding a kind of comfort or meaning that your whole world is different.”

The apartment Hanya shares his family is his fifth home since the war begins. UN estimates 90% of gazans moved by war – many times. Most Gazans now live in temporary habits.

On Monday, Hanaga was jolted waking up in the 2am bed.

“There was a blow that was about to follow in a second, and third,” he said, “It was so strong. I tried to care about myself.”

The government of Israel said that the military action was intended to destroy Hamas’s abilities, which describes himself as an activity to resist Islamist. It is appointed a terrorist organization in the UK, the US, Israel, etc.

The military action began after armed Palestinian groups from Gaza led by Israel attacks Israel on 7 October 2023, killing around 1,200 people, and took 251 hosts.

So far, the military of Israel killed more than 56,000 people in conflict – most civilians – according to the ministry of Gaza, which is powered by Hamas. Israel does not allow international journalists to report free from Gaza.

Hanya works for an organization help called action for mankind and spends the day in one of their projects. A group of girls wearing a white t-shirt and with keffiyeh tied with their waists who made a dance and then join a group therapy session.

One is talking about what’s mean by the loss of your house, some talk about the loss of their possessions, their friends, one they love. And then one suddenly began to cry and everything was silent. A teaching assistant turns the girl away from comforting him privately.

“And then someone told me that the two parents lost,” said it.

On Tuesday, the ran looked at the five-colored kitties that grew up in heaven from his balcony.

“I like the kittens – they say an active act of hope,” he said. “Every kite is a couple of children there trying to have a normal childhood among all this.”

Watching kittens flying makes a good change in drones, jets and “killing machines” Hanya to see in front of his apartment, he said. But later in the evening, the “night orchestra” of nearby dronezyluzing hanging in disagreeable pitches began. He describes the sound they make as “psychological torture”.

“Sometimes they are so strong you can’t listen to your own thoughts,” he said. “They’re different from a reminder that they have watched, waiting, ready to pounce.”

On Thursday morning, the stars heard of energy, steady gun and thought about what it was. Maybe theft. Maybe a turf battle between families. There may be a person defending a warehouse.

He spends most of the day on the bed. He felt it happened every time he tried to get up and put it on the effect of fasting Eid Al-Adha, if he was less malnourished.

Hanya said the lack of control over his eating – and the rest of his life – had a large psychological effect.

“You can’t control anything – even your thoughts, even your good, no matter who you are,” he said. “I took it for a time to accept the fact that I was no longer the person I introduced myself.”

The school used in the presents that have been appointed, and the idea of ​​studying abroad today seems very far away.

“I feel like I’m Gaslit,” says it, “like all these things. Like it.”

The next morning, let’s wake up the sound of birds who share prayers.

This is the first day of Eid Al-Adha, if his father often sacrifice a sheep and they share the meat with those in need and their relatives. But his family has no way of traveling now and no animal to offer even.

“All the population of Gaza did not eat any kind of protein, outside the canned Fava beans, for three months now,” he said.

Hanya’s family knows that one of his cousins ​​is killed while trying to get help.

“To be honest, I don’t know him well,” he said, “But it is the total tragedy of a man hungry, looking for food that is relatively relatively relatively relatively relatively relatively relatively relatively relatively relatively relatively pretty medicuria.”

There have been many shooting incidents and hundreds of deaths reported in or nearly to the distribution points with the help of recent weeks. The circumstances are defaulted and difficult to prove unable to report free from Gaza.

Hanya learned at least 10 people who lost their lives during the war. This figure includes a number of his students and partner with partner in a month before the start of the war. He is the same age as in the presence and he shared his ambition.

Hanga updated his CV to get the name of the college professor. He was his referee and written teacher – but he was dead now.

“It’s a big thing if someone tells you that they have seen you, that they believe in you, and that they bet you,” he said.

Hanya didn’t think she was saddened by any people properly, and said she felt like she had to marry her close family.

“Mourning is a luxury most of us can’t afford.”

Crowbo cocks mark the start of another new day, and the hanaga takes a beautiful rose and blue dawn from the balcony. He said he developed the habit of looking at the sky as an escape.

“It is very difficult to find beauty in Gaza. All gray, or covered with soot, or destroyed,” says Hanya.

“One thing about the sky is that it gives you colors and a rest of beauty lacking.”